Comeback Kid

And it’s done. Clerkship is technically over, with comprehensive exams just around the corner, but no body really gives a shit right now since the past few days were really the only times one could have studied decently for the compres.

What a ride. A smooth one that was. As usual, exams did not fall short of their expectations. Fuckin hard, what else could I say.

So today, this afternoon, starting this minute, I dedicate my life to video games, fiddling with my new hand-me-down iPad and movies I have yet to see. Adios UPCM.

There comes a time where in you face really tough challenges or “tests” in a biblical, or in my case, academic sense. Its like The Man up there throws you a curve ball once in a while. Some might say its a slugfest that goes up to 10 rounds where it all boils down between you and the challenge. Unfair as it may seem, in cases like that you only get to clearly see, what you’ve done wrong and what you might have done right. Your opponent, “the test” seems invulnerable its mystifying but there is always that hope you’ve hurt him just a bit or maybe, just maybe, really… really… hurt him. The fact of the matter is that you can never tell and its up to our inherent human resilience to just keep ourselves in the fight. Like making that last sprint for the ball despite the fatigue in the aim to be in the moment where in you are in a position to make a difference.

I feel like a pawn just placed in an environment where in my natural instinct is to tough it out. A pawn placed in an environment full of distractions; like tumblr, PS3, cigarettes, fast cars and laid back friends. A pawn who, by His divine will, is injured because of his damn inherent resilience. A pawn who’s actually wondering right now if the latest pwnage tool for iOS 4.3.1 is already out (talk about distractions.)

Anyway… God, I hope your smiling, because you’re really beating the shit out of me.

OB ended the year with a bang, not in a festive sense but rather in a “barrel of a gun to the head” type of bang. The exam was bloody difficult. I feel like a carneous degenerated mass excised out of the exam room. Taking the test was like performing a curretage; painful, gritty and effortful.

Dammit.

Thats what i’d call the Nissan Skyline GTR R34 (such a long name) in gran turismo 5 :) got the premium version of the Vspec II NUR. Installed sports medium tires and my array of mods that i have deemed necessary. It did 1:01 in tsukuba but it could have been faster (my rx7 thats a bit weaker but lighter than this one does a 1:00.5). But seriously, the car needs an insane amount of effort/stupidity for it to go out of control. It just grips like crazy. I was so amazed on how much grip and how minimal was the understeer, for a 4wd car, i did not notice i was on my 10th practice lap already.

Anyway… Back to studying bloody stinkin’ cunts. (Obstetrics)

Just finished my 52-hour make up duty in IM the other day and now I’m studying for finals. Clerkship is really over now but I don’t feel like it’s any different from what a normal day feels like. That’s because I ended the year in COMMED!!! hahaha!

Anyway, I’m kinda feeling some brain atrophy and some de-conditioned synapse liking right now. I feel more like a worker than a thinker, just ready to do what he is told and blurt out key words and phrases when asked questions.

With internship just a month away, this will be my last short summer vacation as a student.