talking to teammates makes me realize how much I will miss being involved with the team and being in the pitch playing “joga bonita”
- Me: Life is so unfair, when you work hard for something you really love doing, it just has its way of taking it away, just like that.
- JV: Hey, bro. Cheer up, that's all I can say. That's life you better just move on.
- Me: I know, but its hard. I just don't know what to do right now.
- JV: lets make this "deal" that we have right now, happen. Rake in some cash and after that we are going to BUY HAPPINESS. How does a lamborghini sound? 1 for you and 1 for me.
- Me: (i just laughed at how ambitious he was) and how it seemed that he'd go through that much for his younger brother.
- thanks kuya.
I need to get out. I need a new hobby. This city is making me crazy, weak and indifferent.
The most unfortunate and saddest thing in life is if you cannot do anything to fix a problem, even if you tried. You can only make do but that won’t bring it back to what it was or reveal what it could have been. Football has been an integral part of my life. I’ve been playing it since I was a kid and I just got serious about it these past 3 years. In these past 3 years I have trained the hardest and improved the most. It has brought me much joy and satisfaction to know that I have done so, but the ultimate goal was to bring home the cup to my college this year.
That’s not happening anymore. It’s quite ironic how life takes away something that you tried your best in. It already tried to before but my spirit was stronger than my body which led me to work even harder to recover in time. This led to me having another injury on my good leg, similar to the devastating one on my right leg.
ITS JUST FUCKIN UNFAIR.
No matter what people say, no matter how correct “it could have been worse” or “that’s life” sounds, it doesn’t make me feel better. It just leaves me cynical and depressed. Jaded on thoughts of self-actualization and pursuing dreams.